impossible soul

Oh, woman, tell me what you want
And I'll calm down without bleeding out
With a broken heart that you stabbed for an hour
Woman, I was freaking out because I want you to know
My beloved, you are the lover of my impossible soul

Woman, too, promise me you'll stay and put off all your woes
I was wigging out, too much worry
I could not get you at all
And you said what you want, you would laugh it off
But I know you won't go, not for it at last
Must you write it off for the impossible soul?
And I was in a dream, I was gone away without you, but not too slow
Lest I put it off, for I put it right for the impossible soul

And all I couldn't sing, I would say it all, my life, to you
If I could get you at all
Don't be a wreck, trying to be something that I wasn't at all

Seems I got it wrong, I was chasing after something that was gone
To the black of night, now I know it's not what I wanted at all
And you said something like, "All you want is all the world for yourself"
But all I want is the perfect love
Though I know it's small, I want love for us all

And all I couldn't sing, I would say it all, my life, to you
If I could get you at all
Trying to be something that I wasn't at all

(2)
[Shara Worden]
Do you want to be afraid?
Do you want to be afraid?
For life in the cage where courage's mate runs deep in the wake
For the scariest things are not half as enslaved

Don't be distracted, don't be distracted
Do you want to be alone?
Do you want to be alone?
For life isn't stained of righteousness pain
The seed and the hail, all impossible flights for an interesting light

Don't be distracted, don't be distracted
Do you want to love me more?
Do you want to love me more?
For love is the breath
If water and wave is cursed by the same thing that nurtured its shame
Is it worth all the work?

Don't be distracted, don't be distracted
Have you failed to feel delight? (No, I don't want to feel pain)
Have you failed to feel delight? (No, I don't want to feel pain)
Instead of the life, lived tired and lost, have you left it at last
Where it floundered its death with the language of ghosts

Don't be distracted, don't be distracted
Do you want to be afraid? (No, I don't want to feel pain)
Do you want to be afraid? (No, I don't want to feel pain)
For life in the cage where where courage's mate runs deep in the wake
For the scariest things are not half as enslaved

Don't be distracted, don't be distracted

No . . . don't be distracted

(3)
Stupid man in the window, I couldn't be at rest
All my delight, all that mattered, I couldn't be at rest
From what I liked, from what I gathered, I couldn't be at rest
Stupid man in the window, I couldn't be at rest

And don't be shy in the window
Come down and give your best
Oh, delight in the window I couldn't be at rest
Stupid man in the window, I couldn't be at rest
From what I liked, from what I gathered, I couldn't give my best

Oh, I know it wasn't safe, it wasn't safe to breathe at all
Oh, I know it wasn't safe, it wasn't safe to breathe at all
Oh, I know it wasn't safe, it wasn't safe to breathe at all
Oh, I know it wasn't safe, it wasn't safe to speak at all

(4)
Hold on, Suf
Hold on, Suf
Hold on, Sufjan

1, 2 3, 4!

It's a long life, better pinch yourself,
Put your face together, better get it right
It's a long life, better hit yourself
Put your face together, better stand up straight
It's a long life, only one last chance
Couldn't get much better, do you wanna dance?
It's a long life, better pinch yourself
Get your face together, better stand up straight

Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right)
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better give love, give love, give love, give love)
Boy, we can do much more together,
(better get it right, get it right get it right, get it right)
Boy, we can do much more together it's not so impossible
It's not so impossible

It's a long life, better pinch yourself
Get your face together, better roll along
It's a long life, better pinch yourself
Put your face together, better stand up straight
It's a long life only one last chance
Couldn't get much better, do you wanna dance?
It's a good life, better pinch yourself
Is it impossible? Is it impossible?
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right)
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get a life, get a life, get a life, get a life)
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right)
Boy we can do much more together, it's not so impossible
It's not so impossible

It's a long life, better pinch yourself
Put your face together, better get it right
It's a long life, better hit yourself
Put your face together, better stand up straight
In the wrong life, everything is chance
Does it register? Do you wanna dance?
In the right life, it's a miracle
Possibility, do you wanna dance?

Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right)
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get a life, get a life, get a life, get a life)
Boy, we can do much more together
(Better get it right, get it right, get it right, get it right)
Boy, we can do much more together
It's not so impossible

Do you want to dance?

Boy, we can do much more together
It's not so impossible

(5)
I never meant to cause you pain
My burden is the weight of a feather
I never meant to lead you on
I only meant to please me, however

And then you tell me, boy, we can do much more
Boy, we can do much more
Boy, we can do much more together
Boy, we can do much more together

I'm nothing but a selfish man
I'm nothing but a privileged peddler
And did you think I'd stay the night?
And did you think I'd love you forever?
And then you tell me, boy, we can do much more

I got to tell you, girl, I want nothing less
Girl, I want nothing less
Girl, I want nothing less than pleasure
Girl, I want nothing less than pleasure

I got to tell you, boy, we made such a mess
Boy, we made such a mess
Boy, we made such a mess together
Boy, we made such a mess together

goodbye oprah

today was the last oprah winfrey show. no guests, no car giveaways, just oprah talking, preaching, and reliving a couple golden moments (and outfits). it was a nice change of pace today and i was surprised she kept it together so well. it was a little disappointing she didn't give people in the audience an island or something comically large, but i think she's really just done with that. goodbye oprah, i will miss you on those rare days i am home at 4pm on a week day afternoon.

fitness inspiration: heather morris

one of my favourite gleeks is on the cover of women's health and she looks A-MAY-ZING! she has become my current fitness inspiration. i read heather was a back-up dancer for beyonce for almost two years! no wonder she is such a crazy good dancer.  too bad lord tubbington didn't make it onto the cover too.

new york new york: gleeeeee finale

oh glee. rachel and finn are once more, quinn got a hair cut, kurt and blaine, or klaine if you will, love each other, santana and brittany are still.... whatever, and mercedes and giant lips are dating, secretly. the music was good, although maybe a little TOO broadway, but when in rome i suppose. one complaint however is that glee is so predictable at times. so they didn't win nationals this year, and the didn't win regionals the year before, so obviously if we follow the next logical progression, next season they will likely win, or place well, at nationals. also, mr. schu, why aren't you going to broadway? it's during the summer, your time off, and has nothing to do with your kids. live your dream but just be back for september. maybe sue is right and his hair product is evil... and possibly affecting his mind.

i love jillian michaels (but i also kind of hate her)

jillian michaels is a work out goddess. i love her fitness dvds, especially the 30 day shred, which i currently doing every single day. i'm also an obsessive biggest loser fan (i choose to watch biggest loser during the 8 pm timeslot and watch glee instead online afterwards). but i was pretty late to the party. this past season was the first i ever watched fully. my brother has been into the show since it's inception and has always bugged me to watch it and now that i do we fight over contestants and who is the most impressive. i was blown away with hannah and olivia, i love those girls! big congrats to olivia for becoming the biggest loser, and to her husband who has lost over 100 pounds himself.

if you haven't tried the jillian michaels dvds, try them! you will sweat, pant, tell jillian you hate her, but you will get amazing results. i love 20 minute workouts because 20 minutes is usually all i have to give. jillian is giving me abs for the first time in my life and i love her for it!

models off duty

i am LOVING all things to do with models off duty. the photos are of models in their sloppy, and not so sloppy, day wear, post show wear, and gym wear are just so fun to oogle, plus they make amazing inspiration every time i work out. coco rocha is my favourite, but any long leg beauty will do. also, isn't karlie kloss just way too stylish?

love is always in fashion

you are the trip I did not take
you are the pearls I could not buy
you are my blue italian lake
you are my piece of foreign sky
you are my honolulu moon
you are the book I did not write,
you are my heart's unuttered tune
you are a candle in my night
you are the flower beneath the snow
in my dark sky a bit of blue
answering disappointment's blow with
i am happy
i have you

The Dying Art of the Print Catalogue

I love technology and everything it has given me, including my flat screen TV, my Blackberry, my iPod Touch 2nd gen. and net-a-porter, but there comes a point when I cling to things that are still substantial, like my second hand books, my vast collection of movies, and my love of print catalogs. Print catalogs in particular restore a certain nostalgia in me, like the Sears catalogs, and especially the Wish Book. Every Christmas I would mark out the toys, clothes and shoes I would like for Christmas and my mother would order them (well, some of them).

We lived in a rural community of less than 200 people and so I spent the first 18 years of my life ordering clothes out of a catalog and relishing the occasional trip to the mall, where I would stock up on Campus Crew clothing. I have lived at home with my parents on and off since I was 18. Since January when I moved to Ottawa, I have been feeling increasing tinges of home sickness and they culminated today in my ordering of about ten different print catalogs from stores like Sears, J Crew and LL Bean. And this led me to realize how few stores offer print catalogs now as compared to my youth. Yes, we can online shop to our hearts content but how nice does it feel to flip through a glossy catalog and scope out trends, deals if you order before a certain time, and badly posed catalog models?

I'm eagerly waiting the arrival of the catalogs so I can battle homesick feelings with style.

Support Japan

In light of the recent tragedy in Japan, Kate Spade is launching a special edition tote, with proceeds going towards relief in Japan. Kate Spade has many, many stores in Japan, and is one of many companies, including Gap Inc, that are showing their compassion for the people affected in Japan. The tote will be up on the website tomorrow, I think I may call to try to pre-order it today. Living in Canada is such a pain sometimes because shipping isn't available online from KSNY to Canadians, rather we have to call and make a special arrangement with Kate Spade.

Mad About Rainboots

Rain boots, wellies, duckies... whatever you like to call them are a recent obsession of mine. Everyone seems to be wearing them lately, in bright colours and patterns, classic Hunters and Wal-Mart cheapies. Even the over 40's are getting in on the trend which I love, rain boots aren't just for the young girls anymore! The season for wellies is upon us, thanks to the above zero weather and all the melting snow, and wellies are a perfect option to save your winter boots from water damage. I personally favour the classic Hunter boots, they're timeless, comfortable, and made in tons of colours and styles, including short, tall and Hunteress for those girls who have bigger calves.

I also have a soft spot for Tretorn boots, which like Hunters come in tons of colours. Tretorns may be a shorter boot but many of them come already insulated, unlike Hunters, and have a fur or fleece lining, making them perfect for the slushy winters of Ottawa.